22th sep...today is a bad day..1st...the 1st half of the day is sian..i was alone as my friend went to range and i went jogging alone..no ppl..ask my friend buy food for mi at 10 camp back 11...shit...den the whole day at MT line is really sian....i guess i wont stay there for long as i think cos of my not up to standard skills i might get attach to other company....went home...waited the whole day for my sir and my friend to inform mi the venue and time for the outing we were suppose to go..but no avail...till 730 i waited....den i was at home with dear...cos earlier i called her she so called show mi attitude..and she tot i was angry so when i came back she hugged mi tight..its a move tat hit the spot as i assure her i wasnt angry...i understand she too tired...den at abt 8+ we went to get dinner..ate the dinner and play game...till 10 i watch liao zai...in the show theres a guy who went kuku over the gal he loves...i wonder if i do the same will dear do the same as the gal...i dunno..i was full of envy as i envied the type of undying love...den 11 i spend dear home....we had some arguements..as i heard she say something absurd den i say her den she looked pissed..even when i went to sit she tot i was mad...den i told her my view and we had a long long argument..i know she try very hard not to be mad but in the end she did...she was den in a mood of not even joking could her...she didnt even like it and she hated my joke...fine den...we ended the conversation in a sour note a short time after the joking incident...den i feel so tired of everything...i dun understand..muz we always quarrel over trival stuff..aint we suppose the ones who loves each other the most..y cant be juz endure the anger inside us..cant we change our own bad points for each..im trying my best but i dunno if shes been trying hard enuff cos times we were our nemisis...i realyl hope this type of quarreling life would end soon..i myself know if this persist on i would really be wanting to escape from her to gain peace but i dun wan i love her i juz wanna see her everyday..spend every min of our lifes with each other....is that too much to ask for a life without arguement..and our bet for not quarreling ended in a day..tat makes mi its futile to even stop trying..haiz...i dunno wat to do...i already told her to blog too and theres nothing for mi to see..im juz so disappointed....is it i juz have to ignore everything to have a happier life?