26th aug..today was my dads bday but i have no means to contact him..so i cant wish him but i wish him happy from the bottom of my heart..today 3am woke up cos tummy ache...remember talking to dear so i went to see if she blog...she did..and to my susprise its 1 whole page of scolding and her desperately trying to show how much she love mi and thinking i dun love her de stuff...im baffled by it...cos i juz told her i have no confidence in our r/s tat would last and she tot i was saying i not sure she love mi anot..i knew it from the heart she loves mi...i juz cant believe tat some 1 as lousy as mi would be love by some 1 as good as her...besides..i have nth...im juz a piece of crap waiting to be dispose off...her remarks were some sort hurtful and too xtreme for words..i was in a daze of shock...i tot i was too slpy and went back to slp...but in my mind was repeating of her words..i didnt slp well for the rest of it...went to driving and stuff..cant concentrate...den i drove like a begginer today...almost keep getting accident...but didnt...finally finish went back home..tired..slump into a deep slumber...woke up at 6...play game den hang my clothes..my cousin came..i thx god cos it muz be god saving mi from lonliness..den enjoyed my cousin companion..talked to dear for awhile...i really scared 1 day i would lose dear...really scared.losing her means losing my life..i wouldnt dare dream of 1 day without her in my love..i love u dear..muacks