25th july....woke up at 8+... remembering dears words i ate bread and ate medicine...and try to go back to slp...cant slp dunno why...all i know is i miss dear alot...kept thinking of her den she sms mi...quite happy..den see her online talk to her 4 awhile...found out she might be coming over for lunch...quite elated....but i feel she would be quite ma fan after awhile...so i decided to eat and not meet her 4 lunch..it was a decision i would come to regret....cos as time pass..onli abt 1 i already started to miss her like crazy..time is crawling so slowly...time passes like a turtle when im apart from her...i was in a dilema..cos i didnt know whether i wan time to pass quickly or slolwy...quickly so i can meet her on sat but slowly so i can slowly go back to camp...i was really in alot of pain...deep in myself i was hoping dear would juz stop doing her project and come here and i can hug her in her arms..but i know i cannot be so selfish so i stop tellin myself not to hope this would happen...den while i was waiting time to pass i saw my friend JJ online and he oso on Mc...hmmm same fate..haha..and today i went to ms and i play awhile since i didnt touch it for a long time...got 1 stupid cake kill no exp de..bo liao sia...den i was trying to reminsce myself playing with dear but shes not around which makes mi feel more sian so i left in a while..dear i miss u alot i miss u like crazy..without u in my life for 1 day i already feel like im goin mad...i cant imagine without u in my life..i love u dear.....pls nv leave mi muacks...i really miss u alot alot alot alot alot