14th june..woke up at 1130..waiting 4 dear but nth..called her and no 1 pick up..was getting abit jumpy...finally she called back at 1230..she say she shower..ok..den i play game to kill time...den she sms mi at 2+ asking mi acc her to go buy food..den i agreed cos i was very hungry..den when i saw her wearing full black..i was very very disappointed...cos the day b4 she promise to wear the brown black clothing..which i find it very attractive..and i wanted to take pic of it..4 a certain reason which is a secret...anyway i felt so disappointed i actually didnt wanna talk..dear saw mi so sad she nv say anything and blew her top..den i was very sad....i really felt very disappointed..den i went to bath..and ask her to go eat..den she cooked noodles whereas i have no mood to eat...den while listening to music i felt alot better and join 4 with noodles...while eating my granny called and we went to visit her as planned...had a enjoyable time with her b4 we left to meet my friend colin..den we took cab from holland v to HMV..took a new photo with dear..den we ate squid..den while sitting with dear..talk abt the baby stuff..dear say she wanna be a parent at 30 which i would be super old..den i say can dun wan anot...den she say u wan now meh?den i was abit -.- ...den afterdat i heard her say if she could have a choice she wouldnt even wan to be a parent..den i heard tat i was quite upset with her decision...and i didnt say abything..den while waiting 4 my friend which they were late we started to squabble..cos i say to her if u not goin to sing pls dun go party world and go home...cos i find tat its a waste of money which i dub have much now if shes not going to sing..money now to mi seems sacred..cos im really broke..and i dun wan her to waste it ma..den finally after a while we clear our problems and dear went..i was elated..and we sang from 7 to 11..we had a great time singing..dear sang a few solos..wah..heee..and i was quite happy tat my friends enjoyed her singing which she crazy 1..prefer ppl say she sing not nice..i know she oso happy cos ppl comments she sing nice but wanna ac onli dun wan show tat shes happy...den we sat down at youth park there de coffee shop..ate our dinner cum supper b4 going home...on the bus i was smsing dear...i knew she was tired already and as expected she wanna to write blog but was too tired and start to dream type..LOL new term 4 her...anyway we had a fantastic time together..i love being with dear where we can juz let ourselves go wild and not care...we have alot crazy times..i hate it when she pulls a long face which fortunately today is kinda litte..tat makes my day enjoyable...dear i love u alot...sorry im really feeling the heat right now...my life is tatters...i need u by my side to guide mi thru it becos u r the onli 1 which can save mi right now..pls try to understand cos of tat i might be a little short tempered..but u know my love 4 u would nv change..i love u....