31st may..hee dear u muz be suprise to see this cos i nv tell u i got write...but i wanna suprise u..ok the past few days have been doing stupid jobs which pass down by the commander...but i perk up whenever i think of u dear..today kick off the day with a nightmare...i dreamt dear leave mi and she say i wan a new challenge or stuff...wans a new guy and mi outta her life..no matter how hard i try to talk i cant voice out my comments..i was so sad i was washing face with tears..i was struggling to breathe...den dear walk off and leave mi alone there..the feeling of despair and helpless was killing mi..but luckily its a dream cos i tot i will really die if dear left...dear if u r reading this sorry wor..its not tat i have no confident but as u say who knows next day wat would happen..but dear regardless of wat will happen..i swear my love to u will stay the same and i will love u even if u detest mi hate mi or wat u will always be in my heart cos y?u r my dear my 1 and onli...u r air to mi..without u i cant breathe...so i will trying my best to hold on to u ..if 1 day we would have to part i guess its becos im dead and i will hope u move on..pls..i used to wonder i love u 100 times more than u love mi but now i guess u cant catch up cos every sec my love 4 u is deeper love u

2nd part wah go cgh so many things like ear washing nose probe and stuff and i tot is high blood reference but actually is throat de lol...haha in the end i go cgh got mc..but today i thank god 4 all his help..cos its very smooth and it turns out very good..but i wanna go 10km road march..fuck man..anyway i arrange to meet dear..den when collecting medicine cos i got abit high blood den they medicine need to change...den wanted to meet dear at jp to help her choose her dress but in the end she dun wan mi to come and she bought squid over..heee den met her had some quality time chatting b4 going down 4 dinner..den when buy things at ntuc the aunt purposely put the thing i wanted most at last..dumbass...den go home and commit sin but nvtheless i dun regret it cos its with tat some 1..den send dear home heard some sad news abt her dun wanna let ppl know abt us cos she scared ppl ask..i tt she is ashamed of mi..den i found out y but nvtheless its cos shes lazy and stuff..im not wanting to let whole world know but i wont purposely go hide somethin which im really proud of.i didnt think its fair of her to do this but nvtheless accepted her decision..den i juz wait outside her sch 4 it for her floorball train..another sad news cos she will be so bz and i get to see her less..think of it i wanna die sia..feel terrible horrible..but no choice dear likes it so i respected it again..i juz wan her to be happy doesnt matter if im unhappy anot so pls stay happy and tat will be the best way to cheer mi up


To Be Continued.........