21sth may...alittle while to go b4 i need to go prepared and go back to camp..next time to meet dear its a whooping long 6 days..its a feeling whick make mi very sianz..but mayb can go home due to my stupid cough...might go see doc tml...den if i get lucky i can come home to meet dear again...yesterday after bloggin i stayed up tryin to install the damn itunes but its so fucked up...kept mi up till 4..den i was so worried abt dears illness i didnt really get a good nights rest..cos i was so worried abt her...somemore she got big walk..which i kinda force her not to go cos i dun wan to aggverate her illness more..i juz wan her to be with...i so worried 4 her..den i know when i go later i think she cry againn..which makes mi feel worst..cos i know shes sad but tats really nth else i can do...i juz love her alot too much to be certain...knowing her she will like have no mood to do her work liao..but dear if u reading this pls try to do..try and forgt mi 4 this time being...i know u can do it de cos u r my superwomen...i know u can do everything...but im onli human so i will try to help u within my means...dear juz to tell u i love u alot...till i dunno how to say wor...its so deep..its like...without u im really lost...i juz need u by myside..mayb 10 years down the road it wont be liketis but 4 now i love u with all my heart and i try my very best not to hurt u..i swear..i love u..dear pls slp early eat right take care of ur flu and stuff pls dun let mi worried in camp cos i cant do anything...i love u lots..love u forever...from ur dear cy..and the things we did together is outta love not lust nor wat..its cos my love 4 u is deep...love u really alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot











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